People always say that when one door in your life closes another one opens.
Well for me, May was all about doors closing and a few opening.
These were doors that probably should have been shut a long time ago… Doors that connect me to Arizona, to my ex-boyfriend I broke up with years ago (yikes), to filmmaking in a way that doesn’t allow the universe to help me…
And because all of this centers around Sedona Arizona, the synchronicity has been insane. She (Sedona) assisted in my intention.
Essentially, 6 years ago I met my boyfriend in Flagstaff and hung out with him for the first time in Sedona after he attended a calligraphy class. From there we started a wonderful, wonderful relationship and even though I ended it, I always felt that the energetic connections never went away.
Looking back on the last several years, I can see that returned to Sedona for what I thought at the time was to attend film school, when really I was trying to resolve the energetic stuff from meeting my boyfriend there.
Of course, attending film school added a whole new layer of energetic stuff to clear up.
So in the last 3 weeks I’ve clear out storage unit I’ve had for over 3 years and killed the hope of moving back anytime in the near future, I watched on the news how the spot I first camped with my boyfriend burn to the ground along with thousands of acres of one of my favorite forests in the world (AKA Slide Fire), I attended the last film festival for the last year of my film school’s existence and presented a film that was actually very good and that I am proud of (not something I had to throw together because of the constraints of film school), I stayed at the motel that I swore I would never return to because they almost killed my dog (vowing never to do something actually makes it happen in Sedona)…
… And finally, I had my first physical (sexual) experience since I broke up with the Sedona boyfriend.
WHEW!
Joy and sadness are too mild to describe the emotional rollercoaster I have been on, but then again, it wouldn’t be Sedona without a ride on the rollercoaster.
I even met the calligraphy teacher my ex and I ate dinner with 6years ago when he was in the class the day we first hung out.
I feel energetically purged and cleansed and ready to start the next chapter of my life.
~ Peace ~
Indigo Leslie