Why couldn’t I have long term romantic relationships? What was it about that type of relationship that made me uncomfortable?
There is a guy that I have been hanging out with since I moved to Chicago.
I thought he was cute when I met him and I’m pretty sure he thought that about me.
But I was quite resistant to moving forward with anything in a romantic way. This seems to be on par with my behavior for the last year or so and I thought it was an indication that I had not yet fully released my last romantic relationship.
I also kept telling myself I disliked aspects of this Chicago guy’s personality. These aspects were fine to me as friends but would grade on me if we became lovers.
And then I found out that he’s moving across the country next week.
He suddenly became a lot more attractive.
I’m still not interested in pursuing anything further than friendship with him, but the important information here for me is that by him leaving it made me getting closer to him easy and safe.
The more I have looked at my indigo adult abilities, the more I have realized that this has to do with being empathic.
Usually by month six there is such a blending of energies, that the non-empathic partner’s desires and wishes become my desires and wishes and what I want and what I’m working towards in my life ends up dissappearing.
And when I’m dating another empath it’s even more bazaar because I start to want his goals and desires and he starts wanting mine and we look at each other and think to ourselves, “What the heck is going on here?!”
Anyway, with this guy that is leaving in a week…
He is now safe and comfortable to me because even if we were to now totally blend together in mind and body in this next week, his leaving would allow me to stay on my own path.
If I got caught up in his mental/physical/emotional energy, I wouldn’t get caught up in his energy for very long.
He’d leave and that would give me space to feel completely into my own core again.
I have always been drawn to individuals that lived far away from me or were moving away from me soon and now I understand why.
I’m not sure if this quirk in my behavior and romantic interest will ever change because I’m pretty sure I was born an empath, and while I’ve gotten better at turning off the empathy, in close relationships, such as one with a lover, it seems like no amount of willpower is going to shut out my partners affect on my energy, mood and thinking.
But now that I am aware of this at least I can find someone that also likes being a long distance partnership.
Are there any indigo adults… specifically EMAPTHIC indigo adults… that are in romantic relationships that are working? Can you share your secrets to keeping your energy clear? I know this would help me and I’m sure this would help other indigo adults as well.
~ Peace ~
PS: Here is part 1 of this post series: Indigo Adults and Sexual Relationships – Part 1