Lately I’ve been feeling the hip-swivile of the goddess overtaking me.
I have been feeling the urge to wear dresses and dance and show off my curves and not do things in a serious, linear fashion.
I feel like embodying massive amounts of feminine energy.
I think this has a lot to do with living in Chicago. This is a town that is saturated in masculine energy…
Before we go any further with this post, I want to emphasize that I am NOT bashing masculine energy in this post. Not at all. In fact, most of my life I have spent feeling that I not only can embody masculine energy quite well and play hardball with the boys, but I can beat the boys at their own game of hardball.
What that looks like without the trite feminist phrases is that if business is conducted in the masculine world… suit and ties, 9-5, no pain no gain… not only can I do that, but I can do corporate attire in high heels, 8-6 and have the most painful menstrual cramps in the world and still kick ass…
That’s starting to feel a bit silly to me.
Life is not linear. Not even for the men.
And the goddess energy is about feeling good as the work gets done.
Masculine energy is about muscling through the work even when it feels horrible.
Goddess energy is about setting the intention that things will get done and then going to play at the beach with my dog. Surprisingly enough, not only does the work get done on time, but it’s usually better than if I HAD muscled through it.
Sad to say, but this out of balance masculine energy to be the mentality of almost everyone that is surrounding me right now.
To be clear, masculine energy gets things done.
And when masculine energy is in balance, things get done and feel good and fun and flow.
I have been out of balance with too much feminine energy in the past and I usually just end up swimming around in my feel-good emotions all day. Not a bad way to live, but also out of balance.
And when I am out of balance with too much masculine energy for too long, I start to feel like shit. I get tired, I look like crap, I’m grouchy and I have a general dislike for life.
Being an empath, I get to this unbalanced place when I am surrounded by tons of people that are also out of balance.
This is what I have been struggling with lately.
My antidote to that is focus on the flow of life and feeling good. It is to get into my body more, rather than my mind. To dance. To laugh. To tread outside the lines of what is protocol.
It has been written in other sources that one of the traits of indigo adults is that sexual energy tends to be ambiguous in indigos, in terms of masculine or feminine. I find that this is true with me, and that I switch this energy depending on what is around me, to balance things out.
I think that this is one of the duties of the indigo adults, and not just the females.
The world has placed strong emphasis on the masculine, but also warped the masculine ideal with behaviors like machismo and power over others which is out of balance.
I think that indigo adults are meant to bring the masculine/feminine into balance.
And I think what it would look like is that both men and women would be both productive and goal oriented AND feel good while progressing toward their goals. I think that the importance of play and beauty and nature would be emphasized. I think violence would be diminished and healthy sexual energy would not be shameful nor obsessed over. Life would feel abundant and lush and juicy, AND thing would still get done.
Do any other indigo adults struggle with this? Or have you come to a comfortable place with this? Please share your thoughts and what you think the ideal, healthy balance of masculine/feminine would look like.
~ Peace ~