Lately I’ve been feeling the hip-swivile of the goddess overtaking me.
I have been feeling the urge to wear dresses and dance and show off my curves and not do things in a serious, linear fashion.
I feel like embodying massive amounts of feminine energy.
I think this has a lot to do with living in Chicago. This is a town that is saturated in masculine energy…
Before we go any further with this post, I want to emphasize that I am NOT bashing masculine energy in this post. Not at all. In fact, most of my life I have spent feeling that I not only can embody masculine energy quite well and play hardball with the boys, but I can beat the boys at their own game of hardball.
What that looks like without the trite feminist phrases is that if business is conducted in the masculine world… suit and ties, 9-5, no pain no gain… not only can I do that, but I can do corporate attire in high heels, 8-6 and have the most painful menstrual cramps in the world and still kick ass…
BUT…
That’s starting to feel a bit silly to me.
Life is not linear. Not even for the men.
And the goddess energy is about feeling good as the work gets done.
Masculine energy is about muscling through the work even when it feels horrible.
Goddess energy is about setting the intention that things will get done and then going to play at the beach with my dog. Surprisingly enough, not only does the work get done on time, but it’s usually better than if I HAD muscled through it.
Sad to say, but this out of balance masculine energy to be the mentality of almost everyone that is surrounding me right now.
To be clear, masculine energy gets things done.
And when masculine energy is in balance, things get done and feel good and fun and flow.
I have been out of balance with too much feminine energy in the past and I usually just end up swimming around in my feel-good emotions all day. Not a bad way to live, but also out of balance.
And when I am out of balance with too much masculine energy for too long, I start to feel like shit. I get tired, I look like crap, I’m grouchy and I have a general dislike for life.
Being an empath, I get to this unbalanced place when I am surrounded by tons of people that are also out of balance.
This is what I have been struggling with lately.
My antidote to that is focus on the flow of life and feeling good. It is to get into my body more, rather than my mind. To dance. To laugh. To tread outside the lines of what is protocol.
It has been written in other sources that one of the traits of indigo adults is that sexual energy tends to be ambiguous in indigos, in terms of masculine or feminine. I find that this is true with me, and that I switch this energy depending on what is around me, to balance things out.
I think that this is one of the duties of the indigo adults, and not just the females.
The world has placed strong emphasis on the masculine, but also warped the masculine ideal with behaviors like machismo and power over others which is out of balance.
I think that indigo adults are meant to bring the masculine/feminine into balance.
And I think what it would look like is that both men and women would be both productive and goal oriented AND feel good while progressing toward their goals. I think that the importance of play and beauty and nature would be emphasized. I think violence would be diminished and healthy sexual energy would not be shameful nor obsessed over. Life would feel abundant and lush and juicy, AND thing would still get done.
Do any other indigo adults struggle with this? Or have you come to a comfortable place with this? Please share your thoughts and what you think the ideal, healthy balance of masculine/feminine would look like.
~ Peace ~
Indigo Leslie
Well, I think that maybe most indigo adults have been receiving all sorts of messages that have this idea. I have been feelihg like that for some time now, maybe more than 3 months. But I thought it was me individually. I felt very well indeed.
I was born in an industrial city and since I was a child I had this fixed idea of working in the health department. This meant that I had to be very competitive to have good grades and go to High School. And so, I was a girl that loved to play with boys because they had straight objectives and were very practical. Never quite understood how girls wasted their time (hours!) in role playing, doing like their mothers. I think I was more Yang in those times.
Now, I am a mom of a girl that has 4 years old and I’m living with her parent. Since I am feeling more Yin, that I feel have more problems with dealing with my companion. It seems like we don’t fit. It’s very strange, really. I hope it’s just a question of time and of adapting to this new feeling. The strange thing is that, for the first time, I’m enjoying being more Yin.
When I started to feel like that (3 months ago), once I had these problems in relating with my partner, I sort of denied it. Then, something really cute happened. I dreamed with a friend of mine that is very feminine, but never uses dresses nor skirts. She always uses pants. And we were talking about our work and she was very happy. Suddenly, the conversation turns over and she starts talking about these things, like “I would love to dance in my hometown parties again!” and “would love to use my red dress again”. This in someone that is a little shy…it’s something. I remember thinking in the dream: “oh my God! She’s nuts!” LOL
Maybe I dreamed this because I was denying the fact. Once I do love this friend and always listen to what she says, I think that her image was used to give me a glimpse of this transformation, don’t you think?
The Universe really has a goal, and coincidences are really something, don’t you agree?
I totally agree!
I have even found with this site that I write about a topic and someone comments that he or she was just thinking of/dealing with the same topic, or I will get a comment about a post that I have been thinking of writing or that I have written but not posted yet.
Your dream sounds really fun to me. Is that how it felt to you when you were dreaming it? Everything you said in that dream is inspiring me to think about the great times I used to have at the college parties I used to go to when I was in school in New Hampshire. I remember one party that was out in a field in early spring. It was the first semi-warm day of spring and there was a local band playing Dave Matthew songs and I was so relaxed. It was also a full moon and we were all dancing in the moonlight. It was a totally lush vibe.
On a different note, I’m not a huge fan of David Deida, but I went to a workshop a few years back that dealt with the masculine/feminine energy in relationships. Deida’s philosophy (and I find this true in my relationships) is that when couples spend lots of time together, the masculine partner and the feminine partner blend energies a bit and become less polarized in the feminine and masculine. The way to regain more polarity is for the feminine partner to spend more energy in the feminine and the masculine to spend more energy in the masculine.
What this looked like in the workshop was that the women (typically the feminine energy in the relationship) would separate from the men (typically the masculine energy in the relationship) and would spend their time in activities that grew their natural energy. For the women, this was dance, dressing up in our most fab outfits, etc. I have no idea what the men did because I wasn’t in that room.
But when the two groups came back together, the room was electric and the pull between partners was very strong.
In a non-workshop environment, Deida says that this polarization can be accomplished by women going to a spa for a day with their gal-pals or guys getting together to go camping or whatever.
I’m not telling you to go do this, but something in what you wrote made me think of this.
(BTW, this workshop was based on the Deida’s CD book Enlightened Sex. I agree with about 50% of the content, but it’s very interesting even when I don’t agree with it.)
And going back to my first thought… I was going to write a post about this workshop (haha… another coincidence) some time soon but now I think I’ll just keep it as a comment response. 🙂
Thanks for sharing your thoughts.
~ Peace ~
Indigo Leslie