In a way, I am truly coming face-to-face with the limitations of being an energetically sensitive indigo adult and empath. Electrical gadgets and anything with an electrical charge (including people) clearly sway how I feel, no matter how many protective items I hang around my neck or how often I clear and ground my energy.
I agreed to the job because the effect wasn’t that strong when others inhabit the mall. But once the doors close and I am one of very few around all of that that energetic debris, I feel awful.
This past weekend I nearly passed out from pounding headaches and dizziness (all while attempting to sell portrait packages to my last customer of the night.)
I am in a quandary though, because, once again, I am learning so much about my energetic self that I feel by removing myself from the mall, I am removing myself from an opportunity to learn.
I am also starting to realize that it IS time for me to come out of the “indigo closet”. Clearly, I cannot function in certain areas of this world that are out of whack energetically and this visceral reaction is clearly not going away any time soon.
The upside is that I know when i am in an unhealthy environment from the physical and psychic reactions I immediately receive, which allows me to keep my exposure to a minimum.
Compare that to those that are not as sensitive, and it is easy to see why people develop weird chronic ailments that seem to come from nowhere, but most likely manifested from a cause that the individual was not sensitive enough to detect before becoming ill.
By the time I got home from my last Saturday shift, I felt like my energetic body was on fire, I had a pounding headache and I wanted to puke. Despite my attempt to connect to nature and ground my vibration through my faithful tree in the front yard, I was unable to come down and I remained in an ill state for over 5 hours.
I even felt unwell the next day until I went out to the woods for a while with my dog and drank an awesome veggie juice drink from the local farmer’s market.
So, indigo adults… I pose this question to you… Would you stay at this job? Would you leave, even though you can’t really explain the weird physical reaction to people who don’t understand energy and energetic sensitivity? Or would you try to explain? Have you ever selected or turned down a job because you know you are sensitive in the way I have described?
~ Peace ~
PS: All this tree hugging reminded me of a video I used to watch that had the Schumann resonances (earth vibration). More info on the Schumann resonances is HERE. And here is the video I like to watch: