The problem with visiting Sedona is that if any opportunity comes up that involves the world outside of Sedona while I am in Sedona and connected to the protective Sedona energy, it is very challenging to get an energetic reading on the opportunity.
I haven’t written for a month because in the time between leaving Sedona and now, I have had a number of experiences that have left me beyond disillusioned, to the point where I am ready to say, “Go ahead destroyers. I am so over trying to protect a race that is so out of it that they abuse what little light (me) they have access to. So destroy everything, you, the destroyers of all that is good and alive. I have been abused too much, do not fear death or the end of human life on this world… so destroy. The planet will do just fine without out zombie-like human beings consuming the planet and all goodness in it.”
The first time I left Sedona (in 2011) I left thinking I was about to start an educational journey that fused my creativity with the opportunity to support myself with ease and pleasure. I ended up in the lowest vibrational academic setting in the lowest vibrational city (Chicago) that I have ever lived in.
This time (last month), I took some promotional work a friend offered me while I was in Arizona, promoting solar panels. It sounded like it was a totally perfect fit for me and perfectly in line with my core values. Well, the place I was assigned to do the promotion was, again, one of the lowest vibrational locations in Phoenix, with abusive people around me in one of the most dingy, “sad” (to quote yelp reviews I read afterward) places in Phoenix. The solar panel company offered zero support, even when their display products kept breaking. This in itself was heartbreaking to me because they are quite well known in the world of portable solar panels and considered very “leading edge” and now I know they are just crap and will likely fail innocent people in a real emergency.
So the revelation here is this…
Don’t make choices about the next step in life while still connected to the Sedona energy if that step is outside of the protective bubble of Sedona.
It is as if I am glowing so brightly when I leave Sedona that the shit-storm that is on the other side of Sedona’s happy-bubble needs to kick me in the emotional and energetic guts over and over in order to allow me to mesh properly with “normal” humans.
And so that’s what my last month has been about.
I’m sorry this hasn’t been as uplifting as usual. I am still working toward balancing myself out through meditation now that I am in a different place, but I felt I should write and wanted to be forthright about my experience and where I am right now energetically (all you wise, intuitive indigos would have known, anyway). 🙂
By the way, the tools that typically work for me, like meditation and Access Consciousness and energy clearing, didn’t seem to work in hell (er… the saddest place in Phoenix). Probably because I am an empath and was running the dark energy of those around me and unable to separate my own lighter vibration out of the mire when in the dark places of Chicago and Phoenix. This has led to more disillusionment because these tools should work EVERYWHERE, especially when you need them the most.
The upside of now saying DESTROY to the destroyers is that in Chaos Theory, entropy is necessary to create a new reality.
Perhaps I have been asking too gently and kindly for change.
Now I don’t care how change happens or if I go down with the ship. I am so over this whole thing.
~ Peace ~
PS: I will post again when I am in a better space. Until then, the next book I was going to select for the Indigo Adults Book Club was Bodymind by Ken Dychtwald, which I read years ago (when I was in a much better space) and is great. This will be the book for August. No book for July.