When I was in my early 20s, I had a mentor who was a psychic who told me that when I got older I would most likely return to the East Coast (I was leaving for Los Angeles) to do some soul retrieval work, and pick up the parts of me that had broken off in the process of coping with a very traumatic childhood.
I swore I would never return but here I am.
Yep, I’m here.
At first I was just pissed off to be here, but that didn’t last too long because that’s not particularly constructive. I knew that from my time in Chicago.
So I looked for ways to make my life work here, which also seemed to trip me up.
What I am noticing now is that my time here is not meant to be about the doing, but about the being.
Access Consciousness gives me these questions which I now ask myself as I walk my dog past places I used to walk when I was 10 years old. It is impossible for it not to evoke memories and thoughts from my childhood while at the same time asking the questions and giving me the clearing statements to help me to shift into non-judgement about all the things that happened in this town.
I always pictured my soul retrieval to be more along the lines indigenous philosophies and healings. I always pictured it to be more guided and going into the underworld with a shaman and all of that.
I do have a guide, but she is merely offering the framework and energy work that will make the work with the questions more powerful.
But what I have found to be the best healing for me is the work that I do myself. The inner thoughts and often the bodywork and yoga that shifts my physical body.
This past week I have done clearing work around my first romantic relationships, no-no behavior perpetrated by one of my middle school teachers, enjoyed recollection and reconnection of the pleasure I felt when sprinting to school to encourage weight-loss because that’s the movement my body wanted (and lost 30 pounds doing so), smoothing over my judgement of myself and my best friend after we stopped being friends after 25 years, and asking the groundshaking question, “How can this town support and celebrate my success and joyful existence and me being me?” “Anything that does not allow that to show up, I now destroy and un-create all of that.”
And absolutely fascinating… It works.
This is over 20 years of patterns being wiped away.
~ Peace ~